Adventure Land

This ain't Hollywood...

2012-02-12T11:28:00.001-07:00

Listening to Taylor Swift and putting make up on... feeling heart-sick and disappointed.

I got a call at 4:30 this morning from none other than Patrick.
He was drunk. Very drunk. He wanted me to COME OVER and... you-know-what. I told him I didn't do that and tried to change the conversation, but he was adamant. I kept shooting him down and told him to go to sleep.
We go on to talk for an hour and a half, he starts telling me how he's sorry that he hits on me so much all the time, but I'm so hot, blah blah blah. Basically, he was very, very honest.
He says that he wants to hang out today, and I tell him that I can't because I have a family party to go to. He says that he wants come, that he'll be my date, blah blah blah... I say that it would be fun, I'll see him later, goodnight.
This morning, he texts me. "Woah, what on earth did we talk about last night?"
My heart kind of sank, but I should have known he wouldn't remember.
I play it off, saying I was really out of it and that I'm now going to go into hiding for the rest of my life.
He's like, no no no, come hang out with me today. I remind him of my family thing and say that I invited him last night, but the offer was still good, but he most certainly did not have to come.
He responds by asking whether or not my hot sister is going to be there...
I'm done.
T

Do you know what it feels like for a girl?

2012-02-11T12:05:00.005-07:00

So, quick update with my guy drama...

So,on Saturday, he calls me and we chat for about a half hour, just shooting the breeze, right? On Monday, he says, "Oh my gosh, I'm just remembering that I called you! I was so drunk, what did I say?!" I ended up yelling at him, asking him if he was EVER sober, that he never responds to my texts and so forth, then I left early because I went to the bathroom and just started to cry out of frustration and *cough* hormones.
I didn't come into work on Tuesday, because it was my dads birthday, so I didn't see him until Wednesday. First thing he says to me on Wednesday, "Hey, how're you feeling? Are you having a better day than Monday?" And he was being SO sweet and soft, maybe scared that I'd flip out on him again, hahaha!
He then didn't come in on Thursday because he was sick, as so was Friday and today...
How retarded am I that I kind of sort of miss him?
Stupid heart! My brain says NOOOO! Get away from him! But my heart says, But he's so cute and sweet... He keeps coming back, so he obviously likes you, even though you acted like a crazy woman...
So, you can see where I'm torn, right? I know I shouldn't be, I KNOW that I should just forget about him and move on, but I'm too stupid!! GAAHHHHHH!!!!
DAMN YOU STUPID CUTE BOY!!!

T

Sums up my day

2012-02-06T20:43:00.000-07:00

Pretty much...

2012-02-06T20:40:00.003-07:00

If you've seen Bridget Jones' Diary and don't do the leg kick, you're only half of a woman...

Looks like someone's got a case of The Monday's

2012-02-06T13:24:00.001-07:00

I don't like that my mood can be so easily swayed throughout the day, depending on whether or not this boy says hi, texts me back, says something dumb... I'm not used to anyone but myself being in charge of my happiness.
I've been involved with other guys within this last year, but I've never felt this confused or unsure before.
Perhaps that's a sign that he's all wrong for me, and I need to seriously cut him out of my life.
Take for instance what just happened; I'm standing outside, trying to call my mom, he walks by, says, "Who are you talking to?" I say, "My mom..." he takes the phone from me, says "Is this Mrs. Johnson? This is Patrick. Your daughter wanted me to call and tell you that we're getting married." Then he bursts out laughing and he and my mom chat for a minute.
Then, just now, he walks passed my desk on the phone, so I playfully ask who it is and if I could talk to them, he slowly says, "Umm, it's Megan..." and that was it. He walked away.
I actually felt my stomach drop into my feet. Now, I know I have no clue who this girl is, but I think it's pretty clear that she's important to him.
I'm just feeling down about myself, just thinking that he obviously doesn't like me, I've been building things up in my head... just wanting him to feel this way about me, when in reality, he's just friendly.
I want to go home, snuggle with a hot water bottle and cry.
T

Sometimes, you've just gotta tango

2012-02-05T14:45:00.001-07:00

So... this boy is really confusing. Didn't see or hear from him on Friday, I see him at work yesterday, everything's fine, we chat for a minute... and we text back and forth a bit all day.
He called me last night to tell me about his new place, his roommates cat, just shooting the breeze. It's SO unbelievably easy to talk to him...
He wanted me to come over to see his new place, but I was in Saratoga Springs babysitting my nieces (and I have to admit I was bummed, I kind of really wanted to see him.).
So this makes it the third time he's asked me out that I haven't been able to... which kind of makes me a bitch LOL!
Am I a horrible person to hope that he wants to hang out tonight?
Ugh, I'm so confused about him!

Willing myself not to stare at my phone all day,
T

For the last time

2012-02-01T23:03:00.001-07:00

Okay, HUGE NEVER MIND on that guy! HUGE! He's ridiculous.

I hate my life...

T

Holy shiitake mushrooms!!!!

2012-01-31T19:30:00.001-07:00

So... remember that guy I was talking about?? He just invited me to karaoke at Applebees... I'm not certain how to take this, because I sit with another receptionist, Cameron, and he approached both Cam and I, but he was standing by my desk... so I kind of played it off as a joke, went to the bathroom, came back, and HIS NUMBER AND BUSINESS CARD is on my desk!!!

I am all gooey on the inside... I can't think.

AHHHH!!! What do I do?!

I'm kind of spazzing out! Yet I want to stay cool, just in case he just likes me like a friend... Keep calm!

T

Un-break my heart, say you love me again!

2012-01-23T18:53:00.001-07:00

Okay, nevermind! I think he has a girlfriend. Nipping this crush in the bud. Or butt. Whatever. However the saying goes. Consider it nipped! Circumcised. Severed. All of the things.
But, I can't promise I won't blush whenever he walks passed me.

Stab me in the face,
T

It's just a little crush... (crush)

2012-01-23T15:06:00.001-07:00

Anyone remember that song?

I'm seriously crushing on this guy in my office. Like, ridiculous school-girl crush... it's so silly. But he's SO CUTE!
Today, he stopped by my desk because he heard my co-worker and I talking about whatever, so he stopped and chatted for a minute. I nearly died.

Had to tell someone... haha!

Don't put garlic salt on your hard-boiled eggs...

2012-01-21T12:32:00.002-07:00

OMG! It's been forever since I last blogged! I'm lame sauce, I know. Update... update... update... Hmm, nothing much new.
It's so effing gorgeous outside today! It's all dark and raining! Ugh! I wish it was like this everyday!
Sooo.... my life is boring. Hmm... Oh! I got tickets for Snow Patrol in April! I'm so excited about that! Annnnnd... that's about it.
Work's great, car's great, family's great...

Mostly I'm excited to be getting out of debt, saving money, and going on a trip before the year is up! I REALLLLLLLLY want to try for the UK, visit a friend, explore, have fun!

I'm going to start going to my new ward tomorrow, too. I've been putting it off, but I miss going.

I love having the window seat at work, I get to watch people outside all day, and it rocks! At the moment, I'm watching people run through the rain and it's mighty entertaining.

Well, I'm off work for the afternoon!
T

two great songs to get ya through anything

2011-12-26T18:00:00.002-07:00

Have an awesome New Year!!!
T

Greatest song ever!

2011-12-22T20:14:00.000-07:00

The Hobbit Trailer

2011-12-22T16:55:00.001-07:00

LET ME DIE!!!

Eff bomb,
T

Sucking out the poison

2011-12-19T17:34:00.002-07:00

So, it's been AGES since I've blogged... I admit, I've been lazy. But not a whole lot has been going on lately...

I did however get a job in Provo, for this company called Prosper that I'm the receptionist for, and I LOVE it! The people I work with are really, really cool! It does get slow at times, but that's just part of the job.

AAAAANNND my bestiebestBEST friend EVAR is in town, and I could pee from excitement! I'm seeing her tonight after I'm off work, and I'm judy DYING to leave!!!

So, remember that guy JD that I was talking about for like, a second? Yeah, he randomly texted me the other day and it did NOT go well. It ended up turning into this super stressful few days, that ended in me blocking his number (yes, it was NEEDED!) and hopefully am NEVER going to be hearing from him again!

I'm so tired of stuff, yaknow? I need a change! I'm planning on moving as soon as I can get things in order, but until then, I'll just be living day-to-day!

Soo.... this is cool... nothing to blog about... my life is so thrilling, isn't it? I think I'm going to call it good before I start going off about something weird...

Starving to death,
T

Calling me home

2011-11-09T18:48:00.000-07:00

Okay, so there's this song... and I CANNOT get enough of it! It's my absolute favorite right now!!

LIIIISSTEN!!!!

Err, watch AND listen!

Come on! Do it naaaaoooowwww!!!

So in love,
T

Tired of waiting...

2011-11-09T13:50:00.001-07:00

I want to fall completely, madly, deeply, stupidly and all consumingly in love with a man.

And even more than that; I want him to feel that way about me.

Being patient,
T

That's not my name

2011-11-06T11:47:00.001-07:00

So, over the last few months, I've seriously been wanting to go back to Camp Pendleton. For like, ever. As in stay there. Forever. Well, maybe not forever, but I miss it like freaking crazy!
I miss every aspect of the place! I miss Oceanside, I miss the perfect weather, I miss the Marines, I miss the way the sunsets there, I miss everything! But most of all, I miss my friend, Bri...
I was a really bad friend about 70% of the time, and it's 100% MY fault things went to hell with our friendship.
I think ALL THE TIME about how I could have been a much, much better friend, and how I WISH I could do things over again...

Do-over, please?
T

False alarm, people...

2011-10-30T00:25:00.001-06:00

False alarm... we can all go home, now.

T

So this is it...

2011-10-24T22:39:00.001-06:00

I'm his...

Angel

Sweetie

&

Darling

He's my...

Hun

Sweets

&

Love

T

Post script:

2011-10-23T20:57:00.001-06:00

I'm going to be wearing a lot more high heels from now on... lol
Toodles!
T

Boys, boys, boys!

2011-10-23T20:53:00.001-06:00

There's this boy... and omg he's so friggin cool!
Ahh! I am starting to like him quite a bit, and it's scary because it has been almost 4 years since I've been involved with anyone!
Ohh, I wish I could show you all a picture of him... he's... ridiculously handsome! Like, it's absurd how good looking he is!
He's got a crooked smile and a stellar personality!
Did I mention he's tall? Like, super tall? Like, he's 6'8" and 220lbs!? He's got this body... it makes you want to die!
And he wears these sweaters... and they fit him so well...TOO WELL!
Okay, you get the jist of it... he's HOT! LOL
Anyway, I should probably text him back,
Wheeeeee
T

Blessed are the cheese-makers

2011-10-20T00:02:00.001-06:00

I have an interview tomorrow! I'm excited! I got "laid off" from my nanny job... I say "laid off" because I was no longer needed, so I was given my severance (lol not), and told to piss off (lol not... again)!
It actually was great timing, I'm pleased to inform you that everything is great at the mo!

Blaaaah, I can't sleep... I'm a little nervous. I'm interviewing for an admin assistant for this little company in Pleasant Grove. Ohh, wish me loads of luck, please! I'd be so happy to get this job!
Okay, I'm going to put my phone down now... maybe that will help me fall asleep? We'll see :-P
Mucho love to all the world,
T

P.S Don't forget to wear purple tomorrow (thursday) for Spirit Day!!

Pure, ultimate, undeniable truth!!!

2011-10-17T01:22:00.001-06:00

Not sure which I want more...

Nerd-face,
T

Oh hai!

2011-10-02T23:00:00.001-06:00

It's been a while! I haven't been up to much, just hanging out with my family, enjoying the leaves changing... and so on! I'm a very easy to please. :-)
I've been going crazy with crafts and decorations for Halloween and autumn! I've had some Butterbeer, collected some leaves, driven the canyon... I still have to go up Sundance, get a hot chocolate and an apple cider sucker and ride the tram up and down! I think I'll do that this week!
I'm out! Peace!
T

A path! A path!

2011-09-21T00:26:00.001-06:00

Sometimes, things suck.
Sometimes, they're awesome.
Sometimes you figure there's no bloom to blossom.
You'll have days that are for learning.
You'll have days that you're the teacher.
You'll 99% of the time think your sister ought to be a preacher.
One thing's for certain, one that'll always be tried and true; she'll never let you down, she'll always be there for you.
She's patient, kind and gives sound advice.
Then there's two thing for certain, the second; she's always right.

Starting up my career as a Dr. Suess book writer. Wadaya think? I call it, Sisters: Trail, Error and Nail Polish from Poland.

Fame, here I come,
T

So once...

2011-09-18T02:17:00.001-06:00

Tonight, I thought I saw this one guy I thought knew while I was driving and I wanted to follow him and see if it REALLY WAS him...
And I was like...

But then I felt like a stalker, so I didn't...
Kinda felt like this...

So then I chose to just pretend it WAS him...

Logic,
T

When I fall in love

2011-09-12T12:35:00.001-06:00

I'm so happy to be back in Utah after being in HOT Texas for 2 weeks! It's been colder this last week, I've been driving on my scooter and needed a sweater as the crisp air chills my skin, and I fall in love. This is my most favorite time of year, and I've been waking up excited to step outside and breathe in.
I have so much planned, I'm bubbling over with excitement!
T

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Moabia passis throughia

2011-09-06T17:05:00.001-06:00

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The stars and stripes are big and bright

2011-09-03T08:49:00.001-06:00

So, this last week I've been in Texas! Well, technically it's Texas, but it was more like Mexico (according to my sister and bro). They lived in Harlingen, which is about 10 miles from the boarder, so there are a lot of Mexican people.
I think I might have enjoyed it more if the humidity didn't make me feel like I was melting... but, it did. So I despised it. Haha! I've never seen a place so flat, dry, dead and bug-ridden! And I never will again.
We got into beautiful Arlington late last night, and we are all enjoying ourselves so much more!
On Monday, we're heading for Albuquerque, spending the night, then hauling to Utah!! I'm SO looking forward to being home!
Staying at Monga and Monga's house,
T

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Whether or not the weather permits

2011-08-29T08:46:00.001-06:00

This is how Texas feels to me...

This is what I love and want...

Dying for some cold weather, fall and rain,
T

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What in the name of sanity?!

2011-08-23T22:21:00.001-06:00

Just to reiterate; I love Doctor Who.

The end!
T

She's all grown up...

2011-08-21T22:22:00.001-06:00

My baby sister got married on Friday! It was a hectic, beautiful, tearful, fun, crazy, hilarious and wonderful day for everyone involved!
They got married at the beautiful LDS temple in Manti Utah.

And I watched little children the entire time... which was fun and frustrating at the same time.
After the ceremony, Tallie and Chantry (my sister and her new husband) asked me to stay behind and help their clueless photographer pose them (the only reason they asked me was because I assist my friend Ashlee at her photo shoots, so I guess, in their minds, that qualified me to help), and I think it worked out okay! I'm still nervous that I made things worse, but we'll see...
It took me 2 hours to get home from Manti, and by that time, it was time for the luncheon. I turned the corner of the building it was in, and let out a scream at what I was greeted with...

The theme of their wedding is Disney... so naturally, right?
The luncheon was GREAT! The food was fantastic, the atmosphere was gorgeous and everyone was excited and happy! Chad, Tallies new father in law, gave a wonderful speech about how happy he was for the newlyweds and how much they love Tallie... it made me cry. Then my dad stood up and sang (somewhat silly) When You Wish Upon a Star and that made me cry again! Everything was just brilliantly done!
We then rushed home to prepare food and fruit along with my cousins, grandparents, sisters and Ashlee! It was chaos for an hour!
We all then left for the ring ceremony before the reception, where I acted as an honorary flower girl because our original was being difficult. The bishop that performed the ceremony was fantastic! He is one of the greatest men I've ever know, and I love him dearly.
The reception was a blast! And gorgeous! Chantry's mom went above and beyond (she's a wedding planner)! I wish I got more pictures, but my phone was put away and forgotten. Suffice it to say it was the most beautiful reception I've been to. I'll never forget it!
The night ended with me kissing my sister and leaving with Ashlee to her place to spend the night.
It was a wonderful day, it could not have been better (apart from the photographer maybe) or more magical.
They left for Disneyland for their honeymoon tonight, they'll be there for a few days and I hope they have the BEST time!
I had a few Father of the Bride (the movie) moments throughout the day... you know, thinking about how much you love her, and thinking about the sad things like, how I don't get to see her before bed again, or I won't walk into the tv room and see her watching her favorite show... or how she won't be at our parents house for Christmas morning again... stuff that just makes me sad.
But, I'm extremely happy for her! Chantry is AWESOME!
Goodness, I'm ranting...
I'm off to bed for an early start!
Feeling happy, but a bit sad,
T

Bowties are cool!

2011-08-11T13:40:00.002-06:00

So, while I'm on the topic of Doctor Who, I thought I'd give a quick update...
I'm completely caught up on episodes on Netflix. I'm so sad!
At the beginning of series 5, that's when Matt Smith, the new Doctor (pictured in my blog below) comes on the show, and HE. IS. BRILLIANT! He is seriously fantastic! The whole show has a new feel to it. The writing is a little less campy and corny, and is a little dark and sexy. Matt and Karen have great chemistry and Matt just is fabulous and works well with everyone!
I'm just bummed that I now have to wait for series 6 to come out on DVD, or find a website? Or maybe it's already out on DVD... anyway! It just ended last June and part 2 of series 6 starts on the 27th of this month.
I feel like the whole world knows something I don't! Le sad.
Still waiting for the Doctor,
T

P.S. I think I'm going to start watching Torchwood, it's a spinoff series based off of an organization originally formed to stop The Doctor, then it turned into an organization to help The Doctor and kind of do what he does... I think. That's what I've gotten from it without watching it. Lol it could be completely different, idk...
Anyway, bye!

Whovians unite!

2011-08-01T21:46:00.005-06:00

This is a blog about the greatest show ever!

Doctor Who started out on tv in 1963 and ended in 1989, only to start again in 2005, and it's still going!

So, the Doctor is the last of an alien race called The Time Lords. There was a war, called The Time War, fought with another alien race called The Daleks. The Time Lords, along with the Daleks, were wiped out. Now it's just The Doctor. He's the last of them.
He travels around space and time, kind of acting like a sort of super hero/police officer of space and time. He travels in his ship called the TARDIS or Time And Relative Dimension In Space...

My first Doctor was Christopher Eccleston:

I LOVED him! He was stern, sexy and a badass!
He was accompanied by Rose Tyler played by Billie Piper, whom I never came to like:

Now, it's tradition for the show to get a new Doctor (actor) every once and a while, and the way they explain this is that whenever the Doctor is about to die, he regenerates into a new form (new body, new personality, same Doctor). So, after Christopher, came David Tennant!

And I love him. I love him! I love him! I LOVE HIM!
He has completely stolen my heart, this man... he's dashing, charming, mischievous and Scottish!
He and Rose travelled together for a while, then finally, Rose left! Thank goodness!
And they brought on Catherine Tate (I adore her) for an episode, and I think they bring her back later.
Then they brought Freema Agyeman as Martha Jones and I am LOVING her! A lot!

So, this is where I am currently in the show, I'm about 8 episodes in on series 3 and couldn't be happier!
I'm excited to see how our new Doctor, Matt Smith is! Everyone seems to love him, so I'm excited!

So, this is Matt and Karen Gillan as Amy Pond.

I have so much more to discover, and I cannot love this show more!
There's this band called Chameleon Circuit, and the play Time Lord Rock... they are BRILLIANT!
There's this whole world of Doctor Who! And I think everyone should give it a go!
Sorry to bore you with my nerdy fangirl-ing, but I've been meaning to write about The Doctor for some time now!
So anyway, this is an awesome show, watch it on Netflix or not... whatever... your loss! ;-)
I'm off!
Waiting patiently for The Doctor to come save me,
T

Once upon a time...

2011-07-25T00:28:00.001-06:00

There were two girls. Sisters, in fact. Their father loved them very much and bought them a very nice Fender guitar, a Marshall amp for that guitar, a beautiful Yamaha bass and Behringer amp for that bass. Amongst all of this, gadgets galore.
He generously bought all of this because the sisters simply wanted to learn.
They practiced everyday and became very good over the years.
One day, a boy asked to borrow their stuff for a "music video" he was shooting.
That was the last they saw of most of their stomps and petals. And worst of all, their beloved Marshall amp.
Girl that played bass then brought the remaining goodies to a friends house where her little brother then sold the Fender and the remaining cables and stomps for drugs.
Girl that played bass then brought her bass and amp home, feeling quite defeated and heartbroken.

The girl that played bass is me.

I just watched Scott Pilgrim vs. The World and got so inspired by the movie that I wanted to pick my bass up and play, but then I remembered that horrible story...
I need to go apologize to my dad,
T

P.S The moral of the story is NEVER entrust your stupid teenage children... or their stupid teenage friends. Ever. Especially with expensive musical equipment.

The man I love 35 years ago

2011-07-21T15:37:00.001-06:00

Why yes, he does in fact play football in a speed-o (or as I like to call them, speed-no) and can still be sexy... :^)

He makes my heart feel warm and joyous.
You know who he is, right? If not, he's Robert Plant, lead singer of Led Zeppelin. 35 or so years ago. Believe me, you don't want to Google him... just keep these images and forever remember him as the gorgeous man with flowing, lush hair and a perma-bulge.

Getting every inch of his love,
T

I'm on a strict diet of inspiring music

2011-07-19T21:47:00.002-06:00

I'm finding this song particularly inspiring lately... it is on my playlist, but just to reiterate how much I LOVE it; here you are.

Saying yes... But not in that way,
T

Cereal spitting guy

2011-07-18T18:42:00.001-06:00

I'm never inviting him over for tea... but, Matt Dave Lewis can come over ANYTIME he wishes! So hot!
Holding hands and eating ice cream,
T

Honeybadgers... are we prepared?

2011-07-18T16:58:00.001-06:00

Heeeeeyo! I say heeeeeeyo!
So, I'm not going to blog about how much I really disliked Harry Potter last week... I'm definitely not going to talk about how David Yates stole Neville's big moment... I'm not going to talk about how needlessly long some scenes were, and how other, significant, vital and wonderful/heart breaking scenes were cut so short, and so fucked with (pardon my French) that you ended up not really giving a shit (again, sorry) at all!
Nope, I'm definitely NOT going to talk about how much I hate David Yates... not me. Instead, I'm going to talk about my new little blog that's currently under construction! It's called TheWordlessBlunder.blogspot.com! It's my little photo-a-day blog! Not to be taken too seriously, of course.
I've never, ever claimed to be a photographer. Ever. Every single picture on it has, and always will be taken on my phone, for crying out loud! Lol it's simply meant for fun!
So bow down to her if you want, bow to her! Bow to the Queen of Slime, the Queen of Filth, the Queen of Putrescence! Boo! Boo! Rubbish! Filth! Slime! Muck! Boo! Boo! Booooo!
K, I have no idea why I put that in here, but it's my blog, so I can!
Yay for democracy!
I'm off to wallow in self-pity... and to go hyphenate more words... needlessly-o-course.
Taking a few cues from David 'I-like-to-ruin-great-books' Yates,
T

Morsmorde!

2011-07-13T21:53:00.001-06:00

Muahahahaaaa! I just casted a Darkmark into the sky! With the BITCHIN' (that's right, I said bitchin') wands I made! Want to see them? I'm kind of overly excited about them, because I think they're the best I've done...
Okay, so they're (almost) exact replicas of Harry and Hermione's wands!
Feast your eyes!

Ready, but sad for Friday,
T

Where did you get those GHASTLY spectacles?

2011-07-06T00:57:00.002-06:00

I'm going to the optometrist tomorrow... Hopefully! I've been getting these headaches lately because I squint WAAAAAAAY too much! Finger's crossed!
In other news, I miss my sister Leah. A LOT! She's lived out in Texas for a little over 5 years now, and I haven't seen her in 3. I hate it. I wish I could see her everyday. And kiss her babies everyday. And give her husband a hard time... ;-)
I don't like missing family! *pout*
I love you, Leak!
T

My phone had a cold...

2011-07-03T13:46:00.001-06:00

This is the longest I've gone without blogging in a while! And the reason for that is simply because I no longer have a computer, and I usually blog on my phone... only the last few days I was getting these weird notifications on my phone, and I found out that the application I was using to blog was spamming them... so, naturally, I got rid of it. And therefore, I haven't blogged in forever!
Phew!
So, what's happening? Hmm... I'm almost completely healed from my wisdom teeth removal, I made strawberry ice cream, I've been carving wands for the Harry Potter premiere, applying for jobs, trying to figure out life... normal stuff.
OH! Okay, there's this show that I'm IN LOVE WITH! It's called Doctor Who and it's the greatest show ever! Just thought I'd share... :-)
I'm also thinking about getting an Etsy for my wands... just a thought... I'm not quite sure yet.
Well, just a quick, boring update... I've got to go, my little sister's future in-laws are coming over for dinnah, so I've got to get in gear!
Alohomora,
T

Riddles in the Dark

2011-06-23T15:16:00.001-06:00

Woah, it's been waaaaay too long since I've blogged. I've mostly been complaining how much my face hurts, "eating" apple sauce and taking meds... sort of.
I'm done being hindered by my face! I don't play patient well, I've been eating food that's too difficult for me to eat, going out, and forgetting to take pain meds because I'm in denial... I'm over it.
From hereonout (yes, it's one word), I'm declaring myself healed! Wewt!
In other news, I've been peeing my pants all afternoon over photos released of Martin Freeman as Bilbo! I'm not going to lie, I might have actually teared up after squealing like a 12 year-old does for Justin Beiber... Bieber? Beebar? Bebeer? Whatever.
Plus, you can see some dwarves in the background!!
After seeing that photo, I've decided it will be easier for me to cope with HP ending next month by diverting all my nerdy energy and love towards The Hobbit! I've been trying to be fair, splitting my love equally between HP and The Hobbit, but now, I shall be mourning the end of the HP films by delving into behind the scenes photos, insider information and reading The Book (is that sacrilegious?) over and over again! Hooray for frowned-upon coping methods!
This is the picture I spoke of earlier!

And she lived happily ever after, to the end of her days.
T

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I can't handle it...

2011-06-16T20:16:00.002-06:00

Team Fred Weasley,
T

I'm getting de-wisdomized?

2011-06-13T16:35:00.002-06:00

I'm having my wisdom teeth removed this Friday... I've put it off for over a year now, my dentist is SO going to yell at me. I've been teething like crazy over the last few weeks, it's killing me! But I find it funny at the same time... I'm 23 and teething... awessoooome!

I love these songs!

I just love Ke$ha! Or should I say, Ka-dollar sign-HA.

Hooray for J-Lo!

Van Der Done,
T

Cupid's kind of a douche...

2011-06-09T18:49:00.001-06:00

Somedays I need to slap myself into reality. I let my imagination go too far and I usually end up getting hurt. Though, all I have is my imagination. It's harmless, right?
I'm of course referring to a guy I like. I've liked him for YEARS. YEAAAAARS! It's pure torture. I wish I could stop... I've tried. But, it doesn't work.
Maybe one day I'll muster up the courage to tell him. Or at least talk to him like a normal human.
Curse my inability to communicate with the opposite sex! And even more more so, curses my lack of bravery!
Though, I have to give myself some credit, I have made some effort throughout the years. So, either he's A, a typical man completely unaware to the fact that I have feelings for him. Or B, he's aware, but uninterested... which I hope isn't the case.
This really isn't going anywhere... I just wanted to vent.
Curses to the one-sided Cupid arrow,
T

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The not so quick thought

2011-06-08T10:10:00.002-06:00

While I'm still on the subject of Dorian Gray, there was a quote that really resonated with me.
Someone says to Dorian, "How lucky you are, indulging in every pleasure that wakes within you. You must lead a happy life..."
Dorian says, "I can assure you, there is a vast difference between pleasure and happiness."
I was like this: o.O ...OMFG SO TRUE!
I had an epiphany! I thought, yes! Of course! I found that nearly everything that the LDS religion (every religion, for that matter) looks down upon, forbids, etc. For example, alcohol, sex before marriage, and so on, are just pleasures. Never meant to bring you happiness.
I can say for certain that every.single.time. I drink, I have never once felt great afterwards. Ever.
I can also say that EVERY.SINGLE.TIME. I have EVER had sex (I've never been married, mind you. And it's been ages. Sorry if this is TMI...) I have felt guilt and shame every time. Every time.
And of course there are other sins I have regrettably indulged in, but those are between God and I. :-)
I guess what I'm getting to is that I'm giving that all up. Cold turkey. I want to feel clean. It's a detox of sorts. A permanent detox. And so far, it's going great! Not that I was doing these things everyday, lol but just from making the decision, I can already feel the difference.
My painting (soul) will soon emulate my internal happiness, purity and beauty.
So remember a few blogs ago when I was talking about making a decision that I was excited about? Wanna know what it is? Remember, it's exciting to me, so you're welcome to roll your eyes or laugh if you'd like. ;-) But, I've decided I'm going to start going back to church. The LDS church, to be exact. How anti-climactic was that for you? Lol I'm sorry... but not really.
See, the reason I'm excited is because I stopped going completely over the last year. Well, let me start at the beginning: I was born onto the church, both my parents were active members. Both of them stopped going over the years, but my siblings and I went irregularly. I stopped going when I was 14 or 15 when a boy I liked left for his mission (I know, WRONG reasons to be going at all). I started going again when I was 19 with my best friend Rachel and I LOVED going! Absolutely loved it! It's definitely the strongest I've felt about the church in all my life.
I fell away again about 6 months later, started doing stupid things, blah blah blah. The beginning of the next year, I started going again, and I was putting serious effort into it. Then, of course in true Tanya fashion, I stopped going. Stupid phase again. Last spring and this time last year, I was getting active again, and I actually read the entire Book of Mormon. Then I fell away at the end of summer.
And that brings us up to date. Lol It's been a rollercoaster throughout my life, but whenever I think about when I feel happiest, it's ALWAYS when I was doing what I'm supposed to. Always.
This isn't some 6 month stint either, this is forever.
I am a child of God,
T

Okay, to leave you on a lighter note, here's a freaking hilarious video. LOL @ Michael Bolton!

Ohh this makes me laugh so hard! "Giant Squid!"

Much laughter, smiles and joy,
T

The Picture of Torian Grae

2011-06-06T11:47:00.002-06:00

See what I did there? I mixed my name with Dorian Gray... Ahh, the cleverness of me!
Who's Dorian Gray, you say? It's a play by Oscar Wilde, one of his many. I love him. He was an extraordinary human that was ahead of his time. The movie is on Netflix, watch it!
The play is called The Picture of Dorian Gray, it's about a young man that falls in love with a painting of himself and ultimately sells his soul to the devil to stay young forever. As the years pass, he becomes a horrible person and the painting reflects how ugly his soul and heart have become. So the Dorian in the painting (his soul) ends up deformed and ugly.
I found that fascinating! I got to thinking about souls and what our souls would look if they were paintings. Mine definitely needs work, I can honestly say that. I have holes here and there that need patching, I have some areas that haven't yet been painted.
I'm a work in progress. Like everyone.
What would your soul look like?
Feeling Wilde,
T

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200th post and the almost give-a-way!

2011-06-05T12:45:00.002-06:00

This is the greatest video I've ever seen on YouTube! Doesn't it just make your heart happy?

Also, this is my 200th post! Neat! Though, this isn't counting the many unpublished and deleted blogs... Haha! I thought about having a give-a-way (ego, anyone?), but thought better of it since I don't really have anything cool to give-a-way... We'll save that for my 300th! ;-)

Wishing on a star,
T

Karma with a capitol K

2011-06-03T23:48:00.001-06:00

Does it make me a bad person to get great joy out of seeing an ex-boyfriend/fiance miserable? If so... GUILTY!
Excuse me while I continue laughing at his expense.
Tasting that sweet justice,
T

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New clothes and a new attitude

2011-06-02T15:23:00.001-06:00

Over the last couple of days I've been thinking a lot about something. I know there are some people that might raise their eyebrows or shrug or just burst into laughter. But regardless of anyone's reactions or thoughts, I'm going through with my decision. Cheerfully, too!
I'm excited! Very! It's nothing huge - well, it is to me, but others might find it anti-climactic...
I shall be talking more about this later!
Yesterday I went shopping and got some new clothes! Just had to throw that in! ;-)
Lookin' fly,
T

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Eye rolling and sighs

2011-05-30T21:21:00.001-06:00

Some people never change...
C'est la vie,
T

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Get in your mouse, and get out of here...

2011-05-28T23:20:00.001-06:00

I'm house-sitting for my sister for the weekend, she and her little family took a vacation to northern California, so I'm feeding the fish! :-)
So, I'm a eating frozen Capri Sun and watching 80's movies! I've watched Breakfast Club, Some Kind of Wonderful, both of which I've seen before and LOVE! But, after I watched those, I watches Planes, Trains and Automobiles for the first time and I LOVED it! I sobbed like a baby! I don't know what it was about it, but man, I just let it out! John Candy's character just shattered my heart... If you haven't seen it, watch it! I might be a little sensitive due to the fact that my friend Ashlee and I went out to Fish Springs. Oh, haven't heard of it? Neither had I until recently. We went out there as a small search party, searching for a soldier that's been lost out in Utah's western desert for 3 weeks tomorrow. If you haven't heard his story, Google Joe Bushling. It's tragic. We, of course, came home empty-handed. Which kind of left us feeling sad. We didn't really expect to find anything, but regardless...
On top of all of this, I seriously effed my lower back up, so I've been on ibuprofen 800's and I'm a little fuzzy-brained... I don't like it.
ANYWAY! I'm off to bed! I'm tired!
Mr. Sandman, bring me a dream,
T

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The real Italian job

2011-05-25T17:33:00.002-06:00

I was on my way home from paying my insurance this afternoon when something hilarious happened.
I'm on my scooter (duh) and I have this awesome, black full-face helmet that I wear (again, duh), along with a black, zip up jacket that zips around my neck (does that make sense?), and I look pretty awesome!
I was stopped behind a school bus that was dropping off a few kids, and a few stopped and were looking at me. One kid says,
"You look like an Italian spy!"
The rest of them agreed.
I then lifted my visor and said,
"Dove posso trovare il bagno, buona notte! Viva Italia!"
And sped off.
Which of course means, Where is the bathroom, good night! It's all I really know in Italian...
Their faces were like this: o.O
Feeling like having an espresso,
T

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Mullet with headlights?

2011-05-23T23:13:00.002-06:00

What I've been LOVING lately!

Can you say O.M.F.G?!?!?!

Ignore the cat on the right... Just enjoy the video! HAHAHA!!

That's all for now!
Good night all!
Dreaming of Hobbits, Dwarves and Wizards(oh my!),
T

That bird...

2011-05-20T13:37:00.003-06:00

So, over the last 24 hours, I've become completely addicted to Twitter. I mean, consumed. I love it. I can't help it! I got the app on my phone, and I'm on there ALL THE TIME! I LOVE IT! Hahaha!
This morning I tweeted to Stephen Fry, he has yet to reply, but the fact that I can, I find overwhelmingly awesome!
I started my account for a new blog I'm working on, which I will reveal soon(ish).
Want to follow me? TRaeJohns
Later, tweethearts,
T

Refusal

2011-05-18T21:27:00.001-06:00

Who am I? We all ask ourselves this. Some people are defined by their marital status. Some by their career. Some, like myself, define themselves by their weight. By the number of pounds lost (or more likely, gained) that week. By the countless hours spent in front of your tv, punching, kicking, sweating. By how many handfuls of junk food shoveled in. By the numerous diet fads you've tried. By the hours spent in front of the mirror loathing your body. Or by the tears shed at night, crying yourself to sleep.
Maybe not everyone's stories go like that, but I know everyone can identify.
I've made a decision. A promise. A commitment. To MYSELF. It's only for ME. I deserve it. I forgive myself. I love myself too much to go on any longer. I'm excited!
Making progress,
T

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Homesick...

2011-05-11T14:16:00.000-06:00

It's the most bizarre thing... I have days when I actually feel 'homesick' for a place I've never even been to. Has anyone else ever experienced this? The place I long for is Scotland. Maybe it's just the idea of Scotland in my head that I love and miss... whatever it is, I'll be going there, no doubt about it.
Anyway, I love Billy Connolly and I love these songs!

Wishing I was elsewhere,
T

My thoughts exactly!

2011-05-10T19:41:00.002-06:00

I saw this on a fellow-blogger's blog, Cole Linnae, her blog is here: http://colelinnae.blogspot.com/
I just laughed and laughed and laughed! Well, I usually do find myself laughing every time I visit her blog... But anyway! Here's what had me laughing:

I needed that, thanks Cole! :-)

Also needing some chocolate,
T

Inspiration strikes at the oddest times...

2011-05-10T00:57:00.003-06:00

It's passed 1 am, I have an interview in the morning, but I can't tear myself away from the computer. I get these random bursts of inspiration where I have to delve into my own brain, search for recipes, look at food blogs, write recipes down I want to try and if I want to modify them in any way... I can't shut my brain off. And frankly, I don't want to! Hahaha! I love it!
I'm looking at this food blog right now, and I am just DYING! The pictures are GORGEOUS! Take a look for yourself! http://jacobskitchen.wordpress.com/
His pictures make me want to get a camera and start trying to take better pictures myself! I just use my phone for everything, but I would LOVE to be able to take a decent picture! Especially of the food I make!
Goodness, I really have to get to bed! Ahh!

Excited for culinary school,
T

I needed a good laugh!

2011-05-08T00:52:00.003-06:00

And I found it! I was CRYING I was laughing so hard at this! I've found my new favorite blog!

http://www.modernmormonmen.com/2011/05/my-bum-story-of-mistaken-identity.html

Giggling to sleep,
T

Pretty much...

2011-05-07T13:20:00.001-06:00

So, this week, I pretty much experienced one of the most shiztastic days ever... and yet, a good week.
On Thursday, I go into work, sit at my desk for about 45 minutes, take calls, whatev. I get an email from one of my supervisors asking me to come to his desk after I got off my call. I did so. He brought me to a back office and starts telling me that he and a few other supervisors have been going over a few accounts that I had set up, and they just don't think it's going to work out and that they'll have to let me go... I'm feeling like I just got hit by a bus! WHAT?! I haven't even been on the floor for a week!!! I just stare at him with my mouth just hanging open in amazement.
He then proceeds to escort me back to my desk, I grab my stuff (how kind of them to allow me to get my own stuff, right?) And wave to a few people that look just as confused as I do. He then, without saying a word, escorts me to the front desk, turns my badge in and WALKS ME OUTSIDE!
I drove home in tears. I've NEVER been fired before...
After me bawling to my mom and dad for a little bit, I get control of myself, apply for a few jobs online and decide I'm going to bake something. That will make me feel better!
I decide to make a raspberry chocolate torte. Go to 2 different stores to get ingredients. Start to bake. I have a glass bowl on top of a pot with water in it, acting as a double-boiler, I had done this a million times. I'm stirring some chocolate and butter together... stirring, stirring, smells good, stirring... and BOOM!!! The glass bowl shatters into a MILLION PIECES! It went EVERYWHERE. Amazingly, I was fine, no cuts. But I just stood there, looking at my beautiful, expensive chocolate all over the kitchen with shards of glass in it... I just started bawling. It was one of those funny/sad moments.
My momma heard the glass break and came upstairs to help me clean it up.
I eventually finished my torte. It was delicious.
On a good note, my Beejonna and Nelsito came to visit me on Wednesday, yay!! We went to Sundance, but they were closed... lol so we then went to Park City and had dinner. Went back to my house, made some daiquiris, laughed like crazy people, watched Dracula: Dead and Loving it, then passed out... lol I love them. They were the bright spot to my shitty day. They left yesterday, and I miss them like crazy!
So, I'm now laying in bed, crazy sick. I don't know what I have, but it is winning.
All kinds of blah,
T

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I love this country!

2011-05-01T23:15:00.000-06:00

Feeling rather patriotic,
T

A su-prese!!

2011-04-27T22:31:00.003-06:00

So, I know this might seen anti-climactic to some, but I'm really, really, REEAALLLY excited about it... Ready?

This is my baby!! Ella is her name and I love her!! I just got her today after waiting to pick her up for a week! A week! That's FOREVER when you're waiting for your scooter!! I almost died! Okay, not really... And I'm really not that impatient, I just like to be dramatic... Haha!
Isn't she pretty though? I've wanted an orange scooter for a long time! <3
So, I got my motorcycle endorsement done on my license, I'm going to register and insure her tomorrow morning before work at 11... Wish me luck! :-P
Riding like the wind,
T

Work work work... work work work!

2011-04-26T22:50:00.002-06:00

Woah, have you ever typed or said a word so much it no longer looked or sounded like a word? Weird!
Annnnyyyywaaaaay! Happy Tuesday! How is it going? Good to hear! Mine has been great so far, thanks for asking!
I'm unveiling a surprise tomorrow! Just wait! It's SUPER cute! :-D
So, work! Is awesome! Today was my first day of training, it's been great! Though, I feel like I haven't retained ANY of what we learned today... other than the guy in charge of time-off likes baked goods, which reminds me, note to self: make him some eclairs this week, for time off in July.
I'm tired... and cold! What the eff is with this weather? It's highly inconvenient. To say the least.
Blahblahblah... um... I heart this video!

It's kind of my favorite right now! Oorah, Marines!

Well, I'm off to bed. I shall unveil my surprise tomorrow afternoon!
Until tomorrow,
T

I just had sex!

2011-04-24T22:43:00.002-06:00

Just kidding, I didn't. But this song CRACKS me up! I have a small crush on Andy Samberg...

So, on another note, TOMORROW IS MY FIRST DAY OF WORK! WOOP! I'm excited!! Wish me luck!
Employed,
T

I'll tell ya...

2011-04-20T23:34:00.001-06:00

There are somedays you just want to gouge your eyes out, yaknow??? Where's an ice cream scoop when you need one??
*sobs*
T

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Foodie Food!

2011-04-19T22:31:00.006-06:00

This last week has been a lot of fun! Since this is my last week home for dinner (my work schedule is all sorts of weird), I've been making dinner... quite a bit. And Here is a small sample of what I've made... *drum roll*

First up, Pioneer Woman's "Killer Club" Sandwich... We all agreed it really was "Killer"... It was DIVINE! And HUGE!

Next, I made pears poached in spiced apple tea, filled with vanilla cream cheese, topped with a spiced apple caramel (Flambéd, thank you!) and ice cream on the side! It was SOOO GOOD!

And here we have a meal out of nowhere! My dad handed me a package of sausages and said, "Okay, make dinner with that!" And I looked at him, waiting for him to say he was joking... But he wasn't. So, today, I stewed about what to make for dinner. I finally decided to try my hand at Risotto! Given, it took about 2 1/2 hours, but man, was it worth it!
This is a Spicy Sausage Risotto with fresh tomatoes and herbs. It was delicious!

So, that's a sample of what I made this week. As soon as I'm in school, expect more! Or, maybe I'll be too busy... We'll see! I'm going to enroll tomorrow! :-)
With love and a full stomach,
T

Happy Times Inc

2011-04-15T22:41:00.003-06:00

So, guess what?... I got a job!! Woop woop!! I'm starting not this Monday, but the next and I'm BEYOND excited!! It seems like a REALLY cool place to work!! Weeeeee!!
Oh, AND I'm doing the Susan G. Komen Race for the Cure on the 7th!! I'll be getting my walk on with a few friends! I can't even find the words... I'm so... WAHHH! I'm so stoked for everything!!!
After I got out of my interview today, the sun was going down, I had the windows down, my sunglasses on, blasting some music... It was kind of perfect!!
I'm even more excited because this means I can definitely go to California in July for the Harry Potter DH2 premiere with muh BFF!!! We'll be dressed up, ready to bawl our faces off... WOOOOOT!
Who has two thumbs and is stoked on life? THIS GIRL!
WAAAAHHH!
T

Another thought,,,.

2011-04-14T22:12:00.002-06:00

This might sound masochistic, but it feels good to have heart-ache again. Well, it doesn't feel "good", but it makes you feel human, you know? To know that you're not dead inside, I guess.
Regardless of this outcome, I'm glad I let myself fall... even if it was for such a short time.
I'm sorry, Wes.
In the words of Joni Mitchell,

I've looked at love from both sides now,
From give and take, and still somehow,
It's love's illusions I recall,
I really don't know love at all.

With a heart full of ache,
T

My day... My day sucks...

2011-04-14T21:55:00.003-06:00

Srsly! It sucked! I think it was one of the most suck-tacular days I've experienced in... I don't know how long! All I know is that I NEVER want to repeat it! If I were having a Groundhog Day, day... I'd ask for a do-over day! Pooooooooop! Want to know why? Because I broke up with Wes... You know, that guy I mentioned earlier? Yeah, he's HISTORY. Which is sad. I liked him. But I guess not enough. *sigh* It's complicated, really.
Goodbye detrimental relationship. HELLO wine. Nom nom nom.
That's nom for nom.
T

ROTFLMAO

2011-04-10T21:26:00.001-06:00

Brinn: "...So the book, 'I'm not a serial killer'..."
Me: "Is the main guy NOT a serial killer?"
Brinn: "No, listen! The book is about this boy..."
Cody: "Does he JUST kill cereal? Or does he kill other snacks?"
Brinn: "NO!"
Me: "LMAO!!"

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Mini-ized

2011-04-02T13:42:00.001-06:00

Love,
T

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Attention Worm-kind:

2011-04-01T10:40:00.001-06:00

I honestly DO appreciate you doin' what you do in my garden, making the soil all lovely and what not... BUT I would most definitely appreciate it even more if you were NOT the size of snakes.
It severely grosses me out when I'm going along, minding my own business and out of nowhere, the ground starts to shake and the earth before me falls away as you emerge from your underground fortress! To say the least, you're quite terrifying.
If we, a mere mortal and a worm-god, could come to some kind of understanding where you either A: Don't come up to say hi, or B: Don't allow yourselves to become so enormous; I will do my part and will stop putting your fellow worms on the pavement as sacrifices to the birds.
With much gratitude,
T

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Cha-Ching!

2011-03-31T14:20:00.001-06:00

Running off of 5 hours of sleep for 2 days = hoooooly tired. But it was so worth it! :-)
Napping in the sun,
T

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Today was a fairy tale...

2011-03-29T22:17:00.001-06:00

There's this boy... his name is Wes. Wow! I mean, wow! I... he's... just wow! *sigh* Let's put it this way, he makes my heart SING!
Lovelovelove,
T

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Wannnnnds!

2011-03-25T11:10:00.002-06:00

I've found this little hobby I enjoy to death! And I'm not ashamed of it... I'm quite proud! Want to see??

This is the box I made for Elise, it's very simple, but she's a very earthy girl, so I figured she'd like this.

I can't figure out how to rotate the picture... Grr!

This is the inside of Elise's box. I put a sheer ribbon over the wand just for pretties.

This is Elise's wand! I think it turned out very nice...

One wand I love is my BFF Bri's wand. Here it is.

More detail went into her wand. She IS my BFF after all...

Her wand is nearly an exact replica to Bellatrix Lestrange's wand. You know, from Harry Potter? Bellatrix is Bri's favorite.

I have more that I've made, but I'm kind of in a hurry this morning.
Much love,
T

Dinnaaaah!

2011-03-21T19:04:00.001-06:00

I made my family dinner tonight! I made roasted potatoes, pan-seared, roasted chicken with black truffle butter sauce and grilled asparagus. What a mouth-full! Literally... ;-) Oh! And I also made some pecan caramels.
Needless to say, I'm stuffed! And only a few potatoes were left... So I think my family enjoyed it as well... Haha!
That's all for now! I'm gonna go for a short walk.
Love,
T

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Comeback!

2011-03-21T11:22:00.005-06:00

It's only 11:20-something and I'm already having a significantly better day than last night! I think Aunt Irma is to blame... :-S
I got an AWESOME workout in this morning! I'm feeling like I can fly! I got about half-way through and I wanted to quit, but I kept telling myself, "5 more minutes" over and over and pretty soon, I was done! A whole hour of INSANE cardio in! Ohh yeah!
I think I'm going to stick with some home-cardio for a while... My shoes crapped out on me and I want to get a really nice pair that are made for walking LONG distances like I like to. The other day, I got 5 miles in and the back of both of my shoes were MURDERING my feel and my heels! I limped 3 miles home. I was so pissed because I wanted to get 10 miles in that day... Well, I came close, right?
So, I'm missing California like crazy! You have no idea! Not only do I miss the HOT Marines, the beach, the palm trees, the warm days But I miss my Beejonna the most!!! I heart has a hole in it... *sniff*
I'm telling you, Aunt Irma!!! I'm so roller-coastery today! Haha!!

Wanna hear my most favorite song at the moment??

I love it!! It gets me fired up!!

ANYWAY! I'm going to eat some lunch!

Love,
T

Something's gotta give...

2011-03-20T23:30:00.001-06:00

You know how sometimes you just need to write some stuff down? For no reason in particular, you just want to get it out, right? Well, here goes. Okay, so being %100 honest... I'm so incredibly lonely. Romantically speaking. This next month marks (and don't ask me WHY I have kept tabs...) the 3 year anniversary of the last date I've been on... How pathetic, huh? I'm only 23 (I'll be 23 in 5 months)! I should be meeting different people, having fun, having good dates, bad dates and great ones too! But, I'm not.
I feel broken. I feel dried out and useless a lot. I don't even flirt. I can't, I've forgotten how.
I'm not sure where I was going with this... I think mostly I just wanted to make a statement.
Anyway... Umm, I'm off to bed!
Yours,
T

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When you're smiling

2011-03-13T12:15:00.003-06:00

Welcome, Spring! I'm so ready for it! I cannot wait to get out in the garden, make the grass green and lush, pull weeds, trim trees, compost, get dirt under my nails... I'm so excited!
I'm also excited for tomorrow! You know why?? Because I get to go back home after 2 loooong weeks of being at my sisters house... Being alone in an unfamiliar neighborhood, with the doggy barking at shadows and me having watched too many horror movies makes for an interesting combination. To say the least.
I'm eager to get my room looking like someone lives in it. I'm eager to get a job. I'm excited to start walking again, I miss it! I have a lot to do in the next couple of months, so much that it's kind of overwhelming, but thrilling at the same time. :-)
I'm in the process of making a new wand for a friend, it's going to be beautiful! I'll post pictures when I'm done with it!
Oh! And I'm just remembering I never took pictures of how my room turned out... We did MURDER those nasty pink and green walls, and I'll show the results sometime this week!
Well, that's all from me. I'm off to stain a wand.
Cheers,
T

I heart...

2011-03-08T15:28:00.002-07:00

The sun shining through windows. Taking the doggy to the park and playing. Chocolate Goldfish. Texting Rob. Smiling for no reason. Iron Chef America. Having great days. And oatmeal.
With love,
T

The best thing about me is... YOU!

2011-03-08T00:55:00.001-07:00

I LOOOOOOVE this song!! It just makes me happy! Give it a listen, I know it will brighten your day!

With love,
T

Yeeeeeeaaaaahhh

2011-03-03T15:56:00.001-07:00

Crying to Ricky Martin singing Happy Birthday? Not my proudest moment...

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Dear... girl.

2011-02-26T14:33:00.001-07:00

Your conversation isn't as riveting as you might think. As much as you want EVERYONE at gate 2 to hear all about your sexual-ventures, we don't care...
Ewa.
Sincerely,
T

Oh, P.S. I'm at the airport waiting for my flight! Yay for home, but boo for goodbye...
Le cry.

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... and love...

2011-02-24T20:02:00.001-07:00

true love!
T

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22 is the new 40... or something.

2011-02-24T10:58:00.001-07:00

I found my first gray hair last night... I laughed at first, but then I yelled at Bri for giving it to me. It's kind of karmatic retribution; I laughed at her earlier this month when she had pulled her 4th or so hair from her own 22 year old head, just in one week... So, I find it fair to say I may or may not have had it coming. Maybe.
In other news, I leave for Utah on Saturday. I cried last night thinking about having to say goodbye to this place and to Bri... I'm horrible with goodbyes. Terrible. Awful. I'm really looking forward to seeing my family, but I'm equally as sad to be leaving my Beej. Ugh, I don't want to think about it!
Well, I'm about to catch me some Z's. We were up all night being party animals, then had an early dentist app for Beej, so now it's time for bed again.
*yawn*
T

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An eye-opener

2011-02-21T23:44:00.004-07:00

This evening, I had the chance to read one of the most powerful, honest, heart-breaking and enlightening articles I have ever read. After I read the last letter, all I could do was cry. It was so honest. I've never read anything like it before.
My heart broke reading it, for several reasons, some, I don't understand. Just, read it and share it. You'll more than likely feel the same way I did/do.

http://www.danoah.com/2010/09/disease-called-perfection.html

I felt a surge of inspiration after reading it. I decided to make a promise to myself and those around me. I decided to try and make a difference. I decided.

Reasons I'm NOT perfect,
by Tanya Johnson

When I was 18, I got pregnant and decided to give her up for adoption.
I've been on a "diet" since I was 16.
I have this deep, unsettling fear of relationships.
I have days when I just want to cry until my head bursts.
I run away from my problems, and expect other people to fix them.
I bought a laptop on credit 3 years ago that's now broken. It's never going to get paid off.
I judge people. I say ugly things. I feel guilty ALL of the time for it.
I've been technically unemployed for a year and a half. I say technically because I've been nannying for the last 6 months.
I'm imperfect. And that's okay. I'll NEVER mask it or deny it. Ever.
Sincerely,
T

Story time!

2011-02-20T11:35:00.001-07:00

So, I was home-schooled growing up, but when I was about 14, I was taking a class at our local Jr. High, just for fun. It was at the end of the day, and was only an hour long. My mom or dad would pick me up promptly after the bell rang, and one day, my dad picked me up in our old, 1980 something, brown and tan Chevy Suburban that squealed when you turned the wheel. He had to make a full 3 point turn before I could hop in, so I waited patiently on the curb as all the other 9th grade kids gawked in amazement at the squealing beast of a car. Paying the other kids no mind, I jumped right in and off we went.
My dad apologized so many times. I laughed and told him I honestly could not care less. Which I didn't. At all. I wasn't ever the type of kid that gave a crap about what other people thought.
So, the next day, the bell rang, all us angsty 9th graders shuffled out the door of the building, and I heard a low growl just outside the doors... There was my dad to pick me up in his newly waxed, sleek, black, Pontiac Grand Prix, the engine letting out a low, idle rumble. I have to admit, my stomach jumped in excitement as I opened the door and music flooded the school parking lot, my dad smiling at me, sunglasses on and all. We drove off and my dad, still grinning tells me, "I figured I owed you!" And I kissed his face.
I love my dad!

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Patriotism...

2011-02-15T16:48:00.005-07:00

I've always been a fairly patriotic person, I know our national anthem, word-for-word, I love and respect our flag, I've always loved our boys (and girls) in uniform, so, all in all, I love this country!
So, I wanted to write about how much I love living on Camp Pendleton.
When you very first see the gates, you feel power, protection, organization and an immediate and overwhelming sense of pride. The regal and proud men at the gate wave you through with an authoritive salute. Then enter one of the coolest places I've been to...
This is a place of discipline, respect, honor and rank. A place where 1800 means 6:00pm. Where a beach is a training ground. A place where cadence and artillery fire is heard at all hours. A place where you remove your 'cover' upon entering ANY building. A place where brotherhood means more than blood relation. A place where if you look out towards the ocean you'll see a Navy ship. A place where the words Semper Fi and Oorah are a way of life. A place where families constantly pray for their loved ones safety. A place of sacrifice. A place of sorrow and remembrance. A place of returns and goodbyes. A place of 1000's of brave young men and women.
I look around this place as we drive to the store, and I can't help but feel a swell of excitement and respect as the helicopters swoop over-head, as we pass the tanks and cargo trucks full of men in helmets and camis and as we pass a man in the store, and I realize he's probably the highest ranking officer I've come so close to and I pee a little. Ah, respect...
As I see it, there are 4 ranks; badass, hard-ass, the ultimate, badass mother-fucker, and the occasional asshole. ;-)
I'm going to miss this place like crazy when I leave. I've fallen in love with the Military. I'm a better person for living here.
I mean it with all of my heart when I say, God bless all of our troops.
Semper Fi,
T

Dear cosmos...

2011-02-12T05:30:00.001-07:00

Please give me David Boreanaz. I'd really, really appreciate it... A lot!
K, thanks!
T

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Hahahehehaha... and I thought my jokes were bad.

2011-02-11T15:59:00.001-07:00

Someone's been messing with muh blog. That someone is named Vodka, and she's not very rational. But, we called it off, so there will be no more of that nonsense! :-D
Much love,
T

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Cocktail time!

2011-02-05T22:50:00.001-07:00

We heart grape and pomegranate cocktails! See the grape garnish on the rim? CUTE!!
T

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I love it here!

2011-02-05T17:44:00.001-07:00

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short update

2011-02-04T03:18:00.001-07:00

So, stay with me as I go through my train of thought... I'm not going to be in California for quite as long as originally planned, because my sister really needs my help back home, so, I'm leaving on the 26th of this month! It's soon and I'm bummed I can't be out here quite as long as I wanted, but it's going to be a good thing! I know it!
So, due to me leaving so soon, there's no way I can get a job out here... it was kind of very poor planning, I'll admit! Hahaa! But, isn't that the point of youth? Just going along with it, making mistakes and learning to laugh at yourself? I think so! I will never regret coming out here, I'm having a blast!
I'm so tired! I'm writing this with one eye open, so I'm going to have to bid the world a good night!
T

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Movie time!

2011-01-27T00:49:00.001-07:00

My dearest has a blog! It's a fun movie blog, go check it out!!

http://popcornobsession.blogspot.com/

<3
T

C-c-c-c-cali!

2011-01-23T04:36:00.001-07:00

What to say? It's bea-utiful here! We drove down the Pacific Coast Highway the other day, it was so breathtaking! All we needed was a convertible! The smell of the ocean, all those beautiful shops, people running, surfing, eating lunch and the warm sun on your skin... oh, it was heavenly!
We went to Camp Pendleton's private beach yesterday, collected shells, chased obnoxious birds from our food, got drenched by the ocean, got some sun and checked out the marines running by... it was win all around! :-D
It's been a week since we got here, and it's been great!
As much as I love it here, I'm stoked to go start school this fall! I'm so beyond ready, and it will actually happen this year, I have a friend helping me with applying, grants and prep, so I'll be fully ready this time around! Can't wait! BUT! In the mean time, I'm going to enjoy myself as much as possible out here! :-}
T

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we made it!

2011-01-16T20:40:00.001-07:00

We are now, as I write this, in San Diego!! We made it! We skipped Las Vegas, deciding that it should wait until next month, so we got here a day earlier than expected. I have to say, I have never seen so many hot men in one area!! Can I get a woop woop for the Marine Corp?!
And woop for the Golden Globes!
T

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Acronyms Anonymous...

2011-01-14T00:28:00.001-07:00

I just said goodbye to my family and packed my things into Beej's car! I'm sleeping over at her place tonight, we're running errands and re-packing the car with her stuff in it in the morning, and going to see my sister. Then the next day, we're off to Las Vegas! For the night... we're staying with her friend Erica. Then the next day we go to San Diego! We're staying at a Hotel for that night, watching the Golden Globes, having a drink or two and so on.
We'll then make it to Oceanside on Monday! It's so weird! It's actually happening! I'm so looking forward to this!!!
On a side note, last might marked the 7th time we had seen RED! I freaking loooooove it! Holy shitake mushrooms!!! Karl Urban is a god! I mean, WOW!! He's beyond! There's this scene where Karl Urban and Bruce Willis fight, and we squeal and giggle the entire time! It's the equivalent of guys watching two women wrestling in mud... lol!
Wow, okay, I've had a daiquiri or two tonight, so forgive me if I'm rambling...
We're watching NCIS, so I g2g.
Much love!
T

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